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Wednesday, March 17, 2010 -{'11:48 PM
Its been going through everything with you for half a year. I'm really glad that we have come this far. Im glad both of us are patient towards each other. I'm happy to have you by my side, guiding me through each and everything. Trying your very best to cheer me up and most of all celebrating each and every anniversary together with me even how tired you are when you are back from camp.
Those anniversary present, i really appreciate it. It put a sweet smile on my face :)
Baby, no matter how far how tough our love journey is, never ever give up alright. Although, there are times when we quarrel i really feel like giving up, but I told myself I cant. I cant bare to see you in pain, hurt. I cant bare to leave you alone. Becos I just love you too much. I told myself I must be strong :)
I, Grace Goh Pei Ying. Will work hard for your relationship, I promise that I will never give up on this relationship. As for mummy side, I hope Nigel Ng Qi Wei is willing to give me time to slowly solve it. Please, becos i really dont wanna lose you becos of this.
Baby, I'm gonna see you tmr. My heart now is filled with excitement and happiness, I really cant wait to get to see, hug, kiss you baby. I'm gonna go to bed now, if not I wont be able to wake up tmr to get to see my fatty smelly silly sweetie boy! :D
Baby, I love you to the very max!
AND......
I... LOVE YOU! Heihei =p
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Saturday, March 13, 2010 -{'10:18 PM
Feeling kinda of weird, kinda of mix feelings right now. I dont know how to face, i dont know how to start, i dont know what's the outcome going to be. I'm really afraid. I know the road ahead will be tough, I know it's going to be stressful. Whenever I think about it, my heart felt so heavy, so depress. Never been like this before. If only, fairygod mother could help me.
There are times whereby im thinking why cant you be forgiving? Why cant you talk to me in a proper manner. I feel so.... I dont know how to describe. I dont know whats my mind is thinking right now. I know you're disappointed of not giving you anything on both months, but i will give my full heart to this present on the 6th month.
I dont wanna say anymore, im not in the right state of mind.
为什么不能拥有简单爱 我重来没有这种感觉过 我真的累了真的很辛苦，我的心真的很痛。可是我却不能说什么。
我爱你
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Thursday, March 11, 2010 -{'10:43 PM
sometimes i`m wondering . am i asking or expecting too much frm you . i dun0o wad happen to me . but i just feel so freaking stress and sad . last time you say you no time . cos needa study . nvm . cos exam . i understand . now exam over . you slack . watch tv . so much time and you just cant spend alittle time just to upload our photos online . is this too much ? i nva ask for anything tat cant be done . i just want you to care more for our relationship tats all . but it seems tat you care more for your friends den me . you can stress yourself whole day of even few days cos of your friends . but wad about me ? did you think of me ? i`m so freaking tired and stress cos of my fucking army . i`ve been thinking almost everynight . why are you like tat . this is the freaking 2nd post of the YEAR . wtf right . you didnt even care to upload my blog . i feel so hurt ... now i`m thinking weither do you really love me . or you are just use to be with me tats all . you can so easily ask me for something which you will nva nva do tat to me in the past . wad you wan i`ll give you for sure but now . you seems to be asking more things frm me den eva . i told you b4 . i`m not a rich kid . i cant get many things for you . just now when you said you wana LV wallet for mummy`s present . i was so fucking shock . even when i noe you are joking . i was so shock . cos it seems like you are demanding for more den before . i already dun mind spending more den half of my pay for your itouch . even when i noe i`ll be like shit during month end . but for you . i dun mind doing anythin . i just hope tat we can stay together during the weekends or when i`m out of camp . you are already 19 and you dun dare to try . dun you wanna stay with me ? be with me ? you always said mummy is a strick mother . but to me . i noe tat even if she is so strick . she do have a heart and she will understand if you really tell her . bout us . like wad we done cos i believe tat . tat will make her noe more bout me she will willing to let you stay with me and not worrying . but to you . you dun care . you only believe on wad you think . den wad about me ? wadever i say you dun believe . remember wad i said bout your friend ? you quarrel with me cos of your friends . shout at me cos of them and in the end wad happen ?! they fucking betrayed you . do you noe how hurt was i when we were quarreling ?
i bet you dun0o . cos all along your friends was more important den me . many things came to my mind everynight b4 i slp . i miss you so much everynight . but you are just playing computer . online shopping and watch tv . so many time for you to upload our photos online and you choose not to do so . till i ask you to do den you do . but in the end you only uploaded 3 photos ... wa you noe when i saw my facebook how piss off was i ? and when i asked you on msn you can just tell me tat you got no time and you are watching tv . i`ve tried my best to be a good boyfriend . but why cant you try your best too ? is it very hard to tell mummy tat you are staying at your bf house when you are already 18+ ? is tat so hard to spent sometime to do something for us ? you are always thinking tat i still miss my ex . but i already said so many freaking times tat i only have you and i only love you . cant you just believe me and trust me ?
i did so much for you still cant prove how much i love you ? wad else you wan ?! hais .
everytime . i need to use force to get you do things tat you dun wanna do . and everytime i force you . are things tat are good for you . and also good for our relationships . i just dun understand why other couple even those tat are younger den us . having even more strick parents den us can do tat and why you cant . if theres god i really hope tat he can just freaking treat me fair . tats all . everything happening to me are so fucking unfair . sometime i feel like stopping our relationship and see if you will really come back to me . and let our fate decide . i noe i cant do it . cos i cant bare to hurt you . i love you . i always joke bout me getting hurt during my detail . its cos i wanna noe how much you really care for me . cos when you care for me . i realise tat . you really love me so much and i feel so happy and warm . i wan to hug you everyday when i slp but i noe i cant . dude to army . but when i book out ? why cant it happen ? and i`m sure tat it can be happen . its just weither do you wan or not . mummy already agree on your relationship and she should noe and be fair to both you and me . i always ask you to talk to her . you dun wan . scared tat she will nag . but think back on last time . when you told mummy you had a bf . she did nag but in the end she still let . is being with me so hard ? or am i asking too much . you always say you wan to face everything with me . but infact i`m the only one facing it and you are just running away frm it . hais . theres so much for me to say in my heart ... i dun wanna say anymore . cos it will just get the scar on my heart bigger .
feeling so sad and stress now ... fuck up life .
